Oh hey. Long time no blog.
Still alive. So that's good.
I figured, what better time to blog
then the day I see my long lost ex?!
Yes, the one who met Julie.
Take a read. It's a good one.
And by good one, I mean depressing.
But in a funny, sarcastic way of course.
Anyways, I saw him today.
He left for China about two years ago
and basically never came back.
We stopped talking
and he sort of feel off the face
of my earth.
I was blocked on Facebook
(yay jelly girlfriends)
and he became nonexistent in my life.
That is until friends brought him up
or things reminded me of him…
So, kind of all the time.
And while I'm in a relationship now,
finally snagged a good one,
I still couldn't get him out of my head.
Not so much a,
I want to get back together with him,
but a, I never got closure and
I wonder how he is, thoughts.
Welp, today was my day to close that book.
And I think I did.
Meeting up with an ex is nerve wracking.
Meeting up with an ex you haven't seen
in two years because he's in another country
made me want to puke.
I walked in and it was like nothing had changed.
I didn't have the butterflies
I thought I would after all that time.
It was relaxing. Chill. Good.
But also weird.
Sure, it felt the same but this was
a totally different guy in front of me.
A guy I once thought I would be with
and now he's living with another girl
in another country.
A guy who knew everything about me
and could still name my entire family today
as if he saw them all the time.
A guy who broke my heart in a way
I thought no one could and still
could make me laugh again.
Weird.
Like we were back in time
but everything had changed
and everyone had moved on.
I know, this makes no sense
which is why I can't make sense of it.
I wanted to walk away from this with closure
and part of me did but the other part
didn't even feel phased.
It is what it is.
Time keeps moving and you
either go along with it
or you stay in the past and
never live life to its fullest.
I've kept moving
through it all but today
it felt like I was holding on.
Trying to keep something alive
that was so clearly gone.
So yeah, it was weird.
But at the same time,
I got to see an old friend again.
And that felt great.
Still alive. So that's good.
I figured, what better time to blog
then the day I see my long lost ex?!
Yes, the one who met Julie.
Take a read. It's a good one.
And by good one, I mean depressing.
But in a funny, sarcastic way of course.
Anyways, I saw him today.
He left for China about two years ago
and basically never came back.
We stopped talking
and he sort of feel off the face
of my earth.
I was blocked on Facebook
(yay jelly girlfriends)
and he became nonexistent in my life.
That is until friends brought him up
or things reminded me of him…
So, kind of all the time.
And while I'm in a relationship now,
finally snagged a good one,
I still couldn't get him out of my head.
Not so much a,
I want to get back together with him,
but a, I never got closure and
I wonder how he is, thoughts.
Welp, today was my day to close that book.
And I think I did.
Meeting up with an ex is nerve wracking.
Meeting up with an ex you haven't seen
in two years because he's in another country
made me want to puke.
I walked in and it was like nothing had changed.
I didn't have the butterflies
I thought I would after all that time.
It was relaxing. Chill. Good.
But also weird.
Sure, it felt the same but this was
a totally different guy in front of me.
A guy I once thought I would be with
and now he's living with another girl
in another country.
A guy who knew everything about me
and could still name my entire family today
as if he saw them all the time.
A guy who broke my heart in a way
I thought no one could and still
could make me laugh again.
Weird.
Like we were back in time
but everything had changed
and everyone had moved on.
I know, this makes no sense
which is why I can't make sense of it.
I wanted to walk away from this with closure
and part of me did but the other part
didn't even feel phased.
It is what it is.
Time keeps moving and you
either go along with it
or you stay in the past and
never live life to its fullest.
I've kept moving
through it all but today
it felt like I was holding on.
Trying to keep something alive
that was so clearly gone.
So yeah, it was weird.
But at the same time,
I got to see an old friend again.
And that felt great.
