Is Social Media Stalking the New 1st Date?

I messaged him on Facebook, he followed me on Instagram, 
I subscribed to his YouTube page, he friended me on Facebook, 
I followed him on Twitter and then he texted me. 

All of this just to stalk one another 
only to find out he has a girlfriend. 

Why go through the trouble of getting to know the social media side 
of someone when that’s just who they want you to think they are?

Unless you consider FBO friendships to be the real deal 
then this guy and I are social media BFF’s! 

Hell, we are practically internet married 
with all of the commitment and time we spent friending, 
subscribing and following each other. 

So why is social media the go to medium 
when it comes to meeting people these days? 

It’s simple; 
you can investigate before you get into anything!

Before the internet and cell phones, 
yes- that time did exist, 
people actually met face to face! 

But now everyone (including me) 
hides behind computer screens and smart phones. 

Online dating is a perfect example- 
I recently got into the online dating scene and it’s a love/hate relationship. 

I love the fact that I can check out their grammar, 
what they’re interested in and their “details” i.e. 
how tall they are, if they smoke or whether or not they want kids. 

All things you could find out by actually meeting them, 
but instead you can do it without the awkward back and forth questions. 

You can go through a list of guys until you find your “perfect match.” 
But are they really your “perfect match” or 
just the best sounding option?

I have found out that it’s not all about what you think you want 
and who would be the best option as a mate, 
because I have had some great contenders- 
such as my secure firefighter that has strong career goals, 
a house, a dog and even a boat! 

Total package right? 
Maybe for someone, just not for me. 

Don’t get me wrong, 
I would love to have the total package in a significant other, 
but you need to find someone that makes you better 
not just the one that comes off better on paper.

It is a rare find, but they do exist. 

I found one once but he didn’t know what he wanted 
to do with his life, had zero saved for his future, 
and was afraid of growing up. 

For most girls this not an ideal match, 
but the fact that he made me a better person 
than I ever thought I could be, 
I don’t think I could ever stop loving him. 

Will we ever be together again? 
Who knows, but until then- 
online dating, I’m here to stay!

But a Monkey Could Do That...

You know people appreciate you

when they take the time to send you memes.

I mean, do you know the effort it takes to Google, 

search through photos, copy, paste & send those things?!

About 5 minutes.

And those 5 minutes could be spent doing real work.

But when you're determined to make someones

day, you sacrifice those precious minutes!

Lucky me, I was awarded one of those memes today.

But first, some background.

My job is in social media.

Yes, it's a real job…

And yes, I'm on Facebook all day.

I'm living the life basically.

Due to this, some people make fun of me.

AKA saying anyone could do my job.

Which, if you're in social media, it's a lot harder than it looks!

Anyways…I asked a co-worker for help today &

jokingly asked him to write a tweet for me.

Being the "kind" person that he is, he actually did it!

Makes my life easier…

After I told him I was only joking, he sent me this -

To which I said,

"That would be amazing if you just found this vs. made it. Such is my life…"

And then he responded with - 

I laughed out loud when I saw that email. 

And then wrote - 

"This is hilarious. Thank you for making me feel useless, 

yet appreciated at the same time?"

Yes, that is a question because I'm still

deciding how serious he is about the whole

monkey doing my job thing…

But until they can find a monkey that can do what I do 

(which is way more impressive & probably costs more than me) 

I guess I'm needed in this position.

What a way to start a Wednesday!

It's almost the weekend. It's almost the weekend.

It's almost the weekend...

My Co-Workers Are Killin Me

It's funny how we all remember things differently.

About this time last year, 

I was ending things with a long-time love.

Something I'm trying not to think about

but it was just brought up to me.

Fun/surprising fact about me: I'm not a sharer. 

Especially at work.

Why would I tell my co-workers about my heart-break?

It was one of the most painful & depressing points in my life -

 no one actually wants to hear about that.

Including co-workers. Even though they are pretty nosey...

So, it was bound to happen.

And it happened at a department lunch.

Because that's the best time to tell people news like that.

Right?

There were about six of us sitting at a sushi restaurant,

 talking about our boss who just announced she was leaving.

Someone either asked if anything else big was happening

or asked about my relationship.

I guess I've blocked it out of my mind or my

memory really does suck that much.

Either way, I said,

"Oh yeah, we broke up."

Very nonchalant. 

Like it was NBD.

That's when everyone freaked.

Especially the guy next to me who

always knew everything before everyone else.

Except this.

That reaction at least gave me a good laugh.

I try not to think about this time last year

but a lovely co-worker reminded me of it today.

"Just reminiscing about last year. We were talking about

my bday lunch."

As soon as he said that, I knew where he was going

and what he wanted to say.

"Remember when you dropped that bomb on us?!"

He didn't actually say that last part

but I called him out for bringing up a horrible

time in my life.

To which he asked about my current boyfriend.

Oh co-workers.

And even though this co-worker likes to torture me

with the ridiculousness of my past, 

they all really helped me get through a shitty life patch.

I'm lucky to say my department consists of

good friends - not just people I have to talk to.

So, thank you.

And I'm Back

I realized - 

I've been really fucking depressing lately.

As far as blog posts go…

I use to have such funny experiences.

Ridiculous dates.

Embarrassing stories.

And then I went and fell in love.

And got my heart broken.

And become a depressing ass person.

I'm sorry.

But also, not sorry.

As boring as these last few posts probably were to read, 

I did hear feedback from ladies

going through the same thing that could relate.

So, at least two people appreciated

my downfall of words.

But now I'm back

(kinda)

and ready to finally write in my blog.

But it's not just relation-shits anymore.

For now.

I've moved to Colorado

and currently learning how to 

make friends.

Which feels more like hitting on people…

mainly girls.

My life is ridiculous.

But it feels good to blog again and I'm ready to let it out

because "do you know what happens to people

who keep it all inside?

They get old, they get sad and they get weird."

Thank you Jess.

The One Who Turned Me Around

Well, that escalated quickly…

If you've read my last few blog posts, 
you would think I'm the most depressing,
sad, lost in this world, female around.

And I was.
Was being the key word there.

It's fascinating how you can feel like
nothing will get better. That you have to run away
to get away from all of the negative feelings.
And convince yourself that you will never find someone again.

How can our minds or hearts trick us so much
into thinking that one moment of heart break
is the end of the world?

A cruel, cruel trick…
but maybe it's what we need
to appreciate what comes along next.
And to realize we deserve better.

I didn't think my "next" would show up
beyond my failed online dates.
More on that later, of course…

And I definitely did not think my "next"
would show up in Vegas.
Being someone I technically already knew.

Thanks to a dear friends surprise birthday party,
I met someone pretty cool.

I wasn't planning on going because I was still down.
But my friend is probably the greatest person
in the world, so I said yes last minute.

One of the guys attending caught my eye.
Not because I just thought he was cute but
because he looked familiar.

Turns out we went to high school together!
I try to branch out of my home town guys
but they keep reeling me back in…

Well, we hit it off through our similar sense of humor,
Vegas gambling problems & great looks. 
Obvi.

While we hit it off, neither of us had guts
to ask if the other was single. 
Until one of us had a littttttle too much to drink…

For our final night, the nine of us went clubbing.
That's were my boy went a tad overboard on the booze.
But thank goodness he did!

"So, can I take you out on a date?"
"Sure!"

5 minutes later.

"So, can I take you out on a date?"
"Ummm sure…"

5 minutes later.

"Can I take you on a date?"
"Ask me one more time and I'm going to say no!"

He finally stopped asking but then I thought,
what if he doesn't even remember this?!

Thankfully the next day he asked 
when I was free for our date.

Which ended up to be his dad's birthday dinner.
Yes, on our 1st date I met his entire family.
But I'll leave that for another post…

It's been a few months since our Vegas meeting
and I still like having him around.

Of course I put up major walls in the beginning,
even pushing him away by saying
"I don't want a boyfriend out of this."

Why? 
Because I wasn't over the last one at the time.
And I was afraid of getting hurt again.
Heck, I'm still afraid.

He is sweet, a gentleman, hilarious, handsome and 
doesn't make me feel like I have to be anyone else.

Something I didn't think I'd find again so soon.

But, he's also guy still figuring out his life
and sometimes you have to do that
without worrying about how someone else will fit in.

Who knows where this will end up
or how long it will last, but right now 
I love having someone to share experiences with,
who takes the time to make time.

He's already shown me that I can get past the bad.
He turned everything around for me,
which he probably does not even realize, 
and I will forever be thankful for that.

So, it will get better.
Things will turn around.

It just takes some rock bottom moments
to help you realize that there is so much good waiting for you
once you realize that you're worth it all.